p.s. i love you

I'm so in love tonight.

In the midst of all of life's craziness I'm still smiling.

And that's all because of the sweet boy sleeping next to me.

So tonight's post script...

ten things I love about you parker b.

1. I love being "squash-ed" by you.

And I love the fact that you'll squish me anytime I ask you to.

It keeps me warm in our wintry apartment.

2. I love it when you try to bite my fingers when I touch your face.

You're like the puppy I keep wishing for but just can't have.

And seeing you set your jaw on edge with that little growl makes me laugh. every. single. time.

(this is a photo of little Aspen, my friend Aimee's puppy. isn't he just adorable?! I'm so jealous...)

3. I love it when I try to help you with your chemistry and realize how very little I remember.

Like this Sunday's chat about free radicals when you gasped in disbelief, "You don't know that?"

Then followed up your classic chem nerd comment by rapping,

"You are really dumb."

Sometimes you are really dumb.

And I think it's oh so hilarious.

(please excuse the cartoon's profanity. this was the only chem joke i could find that i still understood...)

4. I love that you love to cuddle me all. the. time.

5. I love that you help me sweep the snow off my car each morning.

And that you always clear a pathway for me to make my way there because you feel bad that we can't buy me boots.

Remember spending close to an hour on this baby while I stood to the side with a cup of salt?

Yeah...I loved you that day. so much.

6. I love that you kiss me goodbye every single morning,

even when I'm fast asleep.

I know I look silly when it takes me a good minute or two to open my sleepy eyes to see you off.

But I think you think it's cute.

And that makes me happy.

7. I love it that you still watch my wedding ring sparkle in the light whenever you hold my hand.

It reminds me of how much effort you put into finding it,

and designing it,

and keeping it a secret.

I think that's the best secret you've ever let me in on.

And whenever I see it sparkle, I can't help but smile too.

8. I love that you love letting me be a part of your biking world.

You love seeing me succeed and you're always so proud of me.

Even when it's something as simple as not endo-ing when going off a bitty boulder,

or standing up to keep from being bucked off my bike in the bumpy sections.

You make me feel "tuff."

And I like it.

9. I love watching you play with all your little nieces and nephews.

They love you.

And I love that they call you baby cakes now.

It makes me laugh.

You're going to be the best dad someday.

10. I loved it when I asked you in the car what you'd ever do if I died.

You told me you didn't want to think about it.

But then you did.

And you said,

"I don't know what I'd do.

This is once in a lifetime.

And there is no one else like you."

And then you held my hand.

And I tried really hard not to cry.

Because I feel just the same way about you.

Thanks for making life so wonderful sweetie.

I lov-a you mucho

and I always will.

P.S. I love how you say "miss you already" anytime we have to say goodbye.

You say it silly, but I know you mean it.

And that's why I love it.

And P.P.S. I just went to grab a glass of water and remembered

...there's more.

I love it when you fill up the water pitcher any time I forget.

I love when you let me sleep in your t-shirts.

And the way you feel when your face is scratchy.

And when it's so soft.

I love the way you message me and then sign off g-chat before I can respond just because you think it's funny.

And I love the way you look whenever you're fast asleep.

It's so sweet...

Gosh, I just love you too too much!

I could go on forever.

But I guess I won't.

Not now at least.

I'll likely add to this come morning.

But for now I'm signing off

so I can fall to sleep in your arms

and dream of the life that can't get any better than this.

Sweet dreams Parker B.

I'll see you in the morning.

:)